back to the root

14 days to go, there’s no choice but force myself to do harder than before, i feel bit nervous, what if i fail? but i should no care about that, which just deteriorating the preparation, instead, just take it as a man, if you ready to win, just prepare to lose, even in a lost, there’s some lesson to be taken which is not available in victory. no need to moan, sigh, or regret if we’ve already done the best we could.
for your information, the situation surrounding the preparation is bit unclear, as there’s still no definite feedback from the exam’s commitee whether all my (requirement) documents, i sent it before, are already approved or not, or even it didn’t arrive to the address written on the envelope just because a silly mistakes from post officer which simply ruin all my hope this year, but i think that’s just unnecessary fear that i’ve made myself without any valid reason. so i’ve to throw that away.
and i need to find an “escape” to distract all my attention to the worries itself, i think writing is one of the “escape”. in english additonally to add the challanges in writing it self, so my concentration will fully absorbed in this activity that (hope) can ease my mind during the prep time.